There was a time in my life I felt alone.
My house was silent and it was just me.
Careful what you wish for, you might just get it …
These words rang true for me.
I wished to be alone, all alone and single.
In the blink of an eye, I found myself divorced, my son moved away and my dog died.
All in a month’s time.
I was alone and very “unloved”, or so I felt.
I heard a wise man say once that you get what you tolerate.
I couldn’t tolerate the quietness.
I needed to go out and “reinvent” myself.
Find a new tribe.
I was shy
I was scared
But I was strong.
I thought about the cute guy I had a crush on,
I asked him out… something I have never done…
Asked a boy out.
He said YES with delight.
I reached out to a friend I hadn’t seen in some time.
We started going on weekly walks around our neighborhood.
I joined a club that I was interested in.
I wanted to start going to church again, so I did.
It took a few months to graduate from sitting shyly in the back to the middle rows, singing out loud instead of lip-synching
I opened myself to love with love.
I called my parents more.
I FaceTimed with my brother on a weekly basis.
I drove to see my son
Before I realized it my house was no longer quiet.
I wasn’t even home that often
Taking a brave first step forward and showing people that I am full of love and want to share it came back to me… They shared their love.
I felt loved because I WAS.