New Season
RetirementStarting to Pull Back and How it REALLY feelsAwwww… retirement. That word that we hear all our lives. That word that seems to be at the very end of the yellow brick roadAs young adults retirement seems ages away, almost non achievable and then the day and nights go by, just like that we all get to a point either our body, mind or bank account tells us it is time to slow down. Perhaps all threeMy amazing inspiring Grandma Jennewein died quickly after she retired. She had dreams like most people of traveling, working in her yard and being with her family more. Cancer had other plans for her. She made me promise that when I could retire… DO! Go enjoy life.Retirement. When I use to hear this word I absorbed it like it was a fictional. I never thought I would "retire". I never thought I could. I've always been a hard worker. Head down, grind out the days. Every day… make the most of it… getting up at dawn, I would joke it was the curse of my name.Retirement: To me it feels like jumping into a great abyss.Semi-retirement: Pulling back the reins of work to just two days. My body is starting to rebel against this physical thing I do day in. day out for the last 35 years. Numbness and pain in my right arm due to three different issues that could lead to permanent damage has me perplexed.. I actually love what I do and don't want to be given a choice like this.Navigating through my emotions is like navigating through my non structured days.Im happy , elated, excited, scared, nervous, busy, tired, overwhelmed, satisfied, and grateful all in the very same momentThe last word GRATEFULLet me pause on this word. This word is everything. I am so grateful to have done what I love for over 3.5 decades and CONTINUE to even if it's only two days a weeks. I am so grateful to have made so many valuable relationships through my chair… ESPECIALLY the one big one… which I now call my husband. I am so grateful to feel this fulfilled at this moment in my life. I am so grateful to continue on down this path, journey in life with other passions that I am excited to lift up and explore. I am so grateful for my health and mind, sometimes sharp wit too… I am grateful for all the beauty that surrounds me and of course… I am so grateful to lay my head down tonight and see another sunrise…